hi friends! feels strange typing this out. never thought id do anything like this and it probably wont get views or anything but hey it might be fun. i thought id write a bit of an introduction about me before actually writing anything proper , i like to read about people before reading their posts so i can picture them in my head. that might make me sound a bit weird to be honest , but what’s normal anyway?
i’m daisy (she/her) , 20 years old from a small village in the UK. a village so small all thats here is houses , a pub and a small post office. i’m pretty sure none of these places even take card. in the last year i have suffered with fibromyalgia , a chronic illness. not a clue why or how i got it but its here and don’t i bloody know it. it caused my life to shut down entirely and come to a complete standstill. if you don’t know what fibromyalgia is ill probably do another post explaining , but its wrecked my life completely. still everyday i try to overcome it and get through day by day.
i used to work , but as stated above this evil condition has took everything from me. i only worked in a shitty shop but it was the routine i miss. having something to get up for. a reason to get up and slather my face in makeup at 6 in the morning. the socialising. i even miss the god awful customers and the incredibly obnoxious colleagues. i left school with 2 gcse’s and they wont get me very far. so unfortunately here’s to being jobless for now. i do want to study again but i’m too old to go to college for free , the lack of income and cost of living means i can’t afford to pay for it and i absolutely cannot get into university so my day to day consists of dog sitting and watching old episodes of eastenders and greys anatomy.
i’ve got a big family , and an even bigger extended family. they’re all lovely , but were all a bit whacky. would never introduce anyone to them unless were proper tight , it would absolutely frighten them off . i’ve got a boyfriend and he is absolutely amazing. i’m sure ill tell the story on how we got together in the future but he is my rock and. really don’t know what i would’ve one without him, he’s put up with me for like 16 whole months which is bonkers
i am an ADHD girly and it is something i really struggle with in day to day life. i also , like many , struggle with mental illness and have been failed by the mental health system. i’ve been struggling since i was a child really , sought help when i was 11 and have gotten worse as years have gone on. up until 18 i went all round the county for counselling with CAMHS (if you know , you know) and then when i was 18 i was basically told to do one by adult services and haven’t got help since , god knows i’ve needed it. until a few weeks ago when my mum dragged me to the doctors and on friday i have an appointment with the mental health team eeek! wish me luck
not really sure what else to say to be honest. not really sure why i’ve said any of this to be honest but here we are. i’m gonna leave it here for now. will probs update tomorrow. we’ll see. if you read this then thank you for reading i appreciate it a lot !
love and hugs , D x
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